Belgian Dating

I’ve been emotionally unavailable. I thought I was in a position where I could open up and love a potential life partner, but I wasn’t. I was able to develop deep feelings and perhaps love that person, but I wasn’t able to open up and let go of my defenses. I think I just might be ready now. I can’t blame the guys I was dating for the relationships not working out – many shouldn’t have worked out! Some were amazing experiences I think I was supposed to have in life. Others were a testament to what I have learned since my divorce about myself … how early experiences shaped my thinking and behaviors; how family dynamics created learned dysfunction; how I created barriers that led to repeated experiences and how I have to take chances in order to live a fulfilling life.

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I’m not sure how to get this guy out of my head, out of my heart and out of my system. There’s always this small nagging pull. It’s even worse when he randomly reaches out. I can logically tell myself that his random texts asking how I am doing have no substance, but they are enough to cloudy my mind. So it’s even more important for me to remind myself of my basic must-haves and that a loving relationship should be just that … loving.

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Ever felt strong emotions or a strong attachment to someone you probably shouldn’t? I’m there. I’m inexplicably drawn to a man who stirs up emotions I have never felt before. It sounds wonderful until I say that he is not emotionally available. I think sometimes he wants to be, but then other times I think it’s a game of cat and mouse that he likes to plays. It’s the worst game of back and forth with poor communication mixed in. Riding this ride is a natural wreck for me. It triggers feelings of not being good enough and wondering what I did wrong – only I know I didn’t do anything wrong.

Black Dating

I’m finding myself in a sad place right now. As I have worked to learn new coping skills, I have also worked to purge negative relationships from my life. I haven’t let down my defenses, so I haven’t developed new healthier relationships. This leaves me in a state of loneliness.

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I have the power in my life to create a healthy life with a healthy relationship. The first step is knowing I deserve it! The second step is allowing myself to take chances – emotional chances where I open up and don’t create an invisible safety net. I won’t lose myself in the people I date and I know I can survive if the relationship doesn’t work. Now I need to make a decision; do I stay in the city I live in now or do I move elsewhere. I can’t open myself up to a relationship before I answer this question. I have a small network of incredible people I call friends and that will be difficult, not impossible, to recreate elsewhere.